A childhood belief about outer space

When at around 2-3 years old - I was at Montevideo as a son of the Soviet diplomat - and I trust this experience had been some basis for my quite deep and sophisticated thought about what life for me is... and is THIS LIFE at all FOR ME??? or I am just a "weird accidential appearanace of my soul" during someone's REAL LIFE.
Time passed by - I grew up and even now - I am sure - the Life around is many ways similar to what Matrix movie has explained as "shell" mode.

The joy and pain of this life of course is what was absorbed by our (I belive - multidimential!) brain.
we all are well trained to "mute" our real feelings in the course of day to day route from baby to grave.
The Universe will be still there wnen we die - while we are sure the "real us" will never die - and for me this is something not very religious - the feeling iniside is "my own" and I can inderstand that lots of people would agree to share this sweet experience and for me every thinking as above - is enlightening my soul and I start to distance from everyday "stupid" deeds, going at work, breakfast, transport.

Only going to sleep at night remaing one of the "real" things - and this is a "right connection" towards sweet and "awaken" feelings as whan I was kid.
I wish all of us stay kids in our heart and be open to society as much as we can agree to be. Openness creates OCEAN of GOOD and HAPPY BEING.
I may sound weird and even lost of mind :) - while I am trying as I said to be OPEN]

Best regards,
Oleg from Moscow