kids

After I watched The Trueman Show, a film starring Jim Carrey where he is in a made up world and he is the star of the worlds biggest TV show without even knowing it, I thought there were cameras everywhere watching me. A couple of times I even said hello to my mirror, thinking it was a camera.

I thought I made up the color name "beige." No idea why... I thought it would be an orangish color.

When i was little and i saw skateboarders on tv, i always wondered how they would kick the board into the air. So one of my friends told me they had magnetic skating shoes and i asked my parents for a pair.

My sister (who was an adult) told me (when I was a kid) that there was a new game called Execution, and it was like the Life game. You got caught doing a crime, got captured by police, went to court, and went to prision, Sometimes you got the death penalty. It was invented by criminals who wanted to teach kids a lesson.

When i was little i used to belive that barbies hair would grow back just like mine did. I was forever getting in trouble for cutting my barbies hair.

I told mum not that long ago ... she said if she had known i wouldnt have been in trouble. Wish i knew that then

When i was younger i had a HUGE red teddy.. being afraid of the dark i used to go to sleep with the door ajar, giving just enough light for me to see that beast of a bear....

I swear his eyes followed me round the room.

For years my mother wondered why the teddy was facing the wall in the morning, it wasnt till i was 20 (or so) that she found out the reason.

Dont have the bear these days.. but thinking back, it still creeps me out and im 25

Around the age of seven, I believed that I was the only TRUE human being, and that everyone else was simply a robot placed on earth by aliens to help me survive, for some reason. Supposedly, whenever I left the room, everyone deactivated and only resumed movement when I returned.

when i was little i believed that if i didn't sleep with ALL of my stuffed animals(i had quite a few) then those i didn't sleep with would feel jealous and try to kill me in my sleep. but the ones i did have would protect me. as a result, i usually ended up with stuffed animals everywhere, and those i didn't have room for i put in my closet and tied a string around the handles, so they wouldn't get out.

Growing up, my dad would watch the news a lot. I then realized, of course, that I was thinking all wrong and that someone had to sit there in my mind and tell me what was going on in my head, just like in the news. I also had a stock ticker, but it wasn't stocks, it was just random numbers. This, however, became very tiring and I decided not to pretend my thoughts were news reports.

I am flexible and always have been. So when I was younger I would hear my aunt say "I love gymnastics." And she was in like a club. And I though she would say "Nasty's" So I thought that was the actualy word. So I would be flipping and doing backflips (with no experience i might add) And I just loved it. So at 4 or 5th grade I said "Here let me show you guys my nasty's! And everyone looks horrified and ran away. So I ran after them screaming. "Nasty's are fuN! Whats a matter!?"

I used to beleive that all of my toys were alive and that they would get mad at me if i didn't pay attention to them. So, every night i would say goodnight and tell them i loved them all, then I would blow about a hundred kisses so each toy could have one. Finally I would ask them to share the kisses if someone didnt get one, and if the were lonely to hug the toy next to them.

When I was...oh, I don't know, maybe seven or eight, I looked in a mirror and saw that my back curved forward at the base, so my upper body was a bit farther forward than my lower body. I was convinced that I was turning into a centaur, and was very excited until I told my mother and she explained that I just didn't stand straight. I also thought that shoulderblades were actually wings starting to grow (I think I read this in a book and thought it made sense) and wondered if the reason they never became wings was because it was happening slowly, through evolution.

Up to the age of about 9 I used to think that I was still a baby and my life was all a dream and everytime I hurt myself it's just because I had hit myself on the bars of my cot or something and then I would wake up and live the exact same life but know what to do because I would have lived it already and I wouldn't get into as much trouble with people and they wouldn't do things to me that they have done. Now I know this isn't correct and I shall have to live my life the hard way, without knowing whats coming next!

When I was younger, my parents would try to only let me sleep with ONE stuffed animal, but I would feel bad for the others that were left out, so half of the time, I would try to stay awake until after my parents checked on me and then put them all on my bed, leaving no room for me, so I would sleep on the floor.

When I was little all my toys I kept at my granny's house would mysteriously disappear around my birthday. When I'd ask her, she use to tell me that either I lost them or baby toys would dissapear when I grew up.

I learned shortly after she died that she would throw them away. :(

I used to believe that the whole world was a virtual reality experiment where I was the only real person. I wondered if the room and the people in it existed in any sense if I left the room. Sometimes I wondered the lenghts somebody went to design things to make me think it was all real.

For that matter I still wonder if the world would exist in real sense when I am gone. When I don't percieve it does it make sense for me to think it still exists? Feel very scared and alone when I think I am stuck inside me for so many years and I am able to see the world only from this angle. Anybody else feel like this?