media: being watched

I used to believe…

When I was a kid, I used to think that we were the main character of our life and everyone else were actors, just because I saw "The Truman Show".
So when I was not in the room, listened to my parents to see if they talked about their life outside of me. Once I was so convised, that I looked everywhere if they were something like cameras. When my parents arrived, my home was messy, so they scolded me. I never told them why I did that. Now fortunately I don't think that anymore

I used to believe…

When I was five years old I saw Romeo and Juliet living in my backyard.... I know it was them.. or maybe it was the gnomes..

I would always put books, magazines, VHSes and DVDs front cover-down because I believed the characters on the front cover would watch what I was doing and judge me.

I used to believe…

When I was a child I used to believe that all adults (as well as any child who wasn't my friend) were actors and were secretly spying on my life (kind of like the Truman Show). I thought that this "spying" was how certain adults such as teachers knew personal details such as my full name and home address.

I used to believe…

When I was little I never understood how people could 'get lost' bushwalking or in the Outback. My mother always seemed to know what I was doing, so I thought we lived in some kind of Big Brother state where the authorities were watching everyone, even in remote locations. Whenever the news announced a bushwalker missing, I just wondered why they didn't check all of their footage.

I used to believe…

Growing up, my brother and I believed the people in the TV could see us just like we could see them, so we always hid somewhere if we didn't want to be seen, like if we were just in our underwear

I used to believe that I was being watched on TV somewhere, I guess like a reality show or something, and would start acting on my best behavior and sometimes talk to the people watching .. And this was in early 90s before reality tv shows ;)

I used to believe my life was like the Truman show. One time a guy in kabuki cab got off his bike. pointed at me and said to the guy in the cab (like a bike with 2 person seat in the back) You see that guy there? When he dies everything you see here will be gone! The old guy in the cab laughed. Another one : I was in a liquor store. The manager picked up the microphone and said. "everyone in the store, I would like to say hi to Michael. They said "Hi" Michael. I put my head down. paid for the beer and left. Many store keepers know my name. Not meeting them before. What I think: They grow us in bubbles, so they can be filled with paid actors that can and do exist in other bubbles. When two believers meet, we can hear each other's instructions given to us. We are not alone. They just have a strange way of growing humans now. To MAXIMIZE PROFIT AND GROWTH.
How do they get paid anyway? With ways. The Grand "way" trading machine.
Vancouver and Victoria BC Canada is teaming with these paid actor types. filled to the brim.

i used to believe the people on TV could see you

I used to believe…

When I was 6 I thought that I am a TV character and that the episodes start when I woke up in the morning,so every morning I would dance and sing thinking that this is the intro.

I used to believe…

When my sister and I were little, we used to think that our lives were being filmed as movies. We thought they stopped the movie at night when we were sleeping and then continued it in the morning.

I used to believe…

when i was young we lived in an apartment that had a hole in the wall above the shower. Someone had hung something there at one point. It terrified me and i thought there was a person behind it who watched me shower. My dad eventually ran a deoderant stick over it to cover. Every once in a while i would add to. There was an odd orange stain there until the day we moved.

I used to believe…

Whenever I went to sporting events as a kid, I would get so confused by the different sections that the arena had. I thought that the players played individually for each different section, and I never understood that we were all watching the same game.

I used to believe that my life was a big story that a babysitting was reading to a child every night. The book had chapters according to the number of years I was old. I thought that everynight when I went to bed the child went to bed too and the book was closed.

I used to believe…

When I was little I believed that the people in pictures were watching me. I wouldnt change in front of photographs for the longest time.

I believed growing up that I was the star of a television show. Cameras constantly following and capturing every moment of my life for all to see. People only existed when interacting with me or being in the vicinity of my being. So I would also wonder what happens to these "characters" once I am gone. Do they disappear? Safe to say that bathroom moments were pretty embarrassing.