A childhood belief about i'm different

After I saw the movie "The Truman Show" I was TERRIFIED.I then believed my life was a T.V. show.I felt so cheated.But I thought if they knew that I knew the truth they would kill me,so I never told anyone what I thought.And whenever I was about to change or take a shower (get naked) or something I would look around as if there was a camera somewhere and whisper "Perverts" or "You're sick". I actually still sort of believe it...